Post 9: "Heavenly"

I have become quite used to my schedule I guess, the strange thing is that I'm really enjoying my acting classes. I have gotten over my stage fright, although President Han says this may come back to haunt me when I'm actually on set, so that's something that I have to beware of. There is just something intriguing about slipping into somebody else's life, it comes so naturally. I had even had this dream about acting on set and despite the amount of NG's I had, and how I had to re-shoot scenes, I had the best time, too bad it was only a dream. But President Han came into class today and told me that he was really impressed with my progress and was going to start having go to auditions... the other girls aren't happy with me. They say that I'm a newbie and that I just started a few months ago, there is no way that I could be better than them, and that they deserved the auditions more than I did, which is kind of true, I just arrived and I feel bad... but President Han replied saying "Well if you would work hard like Faye, and had nearly as much talent, than maybe you can start getting auditions, in the mean time, continue to use your daddy's money to pretend you're special and see if you make it big." I was in awe... and I haven't heard a word from them since, well except the rare few about how they didn't know what David Song saw in me, to hang out with "a girl like her" whatever that means. sigh, and in case you can't tell my mandarin has gotten ALOT better, but there are a few phrases I still can't understand... pretty sure they might be swearing and insults, so maybe it's for the best. I also realized that I may have to take back what I said to Ru... acting is far more difficult than I thought, so maybe not ANYBODY can do it... There are so many different things that you have to consider as an actor, every movement even the slight move of the wrist has to be in character. "would your character bite their lip in this situation or would they smirk and act as if nothing fazes them?" every movement and thought counts and must not be "you". I starting to really enjoy it though, it's a challenge that I love, and it feels good to know that i'm good at it too. I think that when the time comes it may be difficult to leave... although I can't say the same for the people, I met the "angel" of Panda. Her name is "Heavenly" hahaha Heavenly my butt. She knocked into me today on the way out of Panda and just turned and told me to watch where "someone like you" steps. I don't know, maybe I have a sign on my forehead that says "I am lower than you so totally treat me like dirt!" ugh Wish me Luck!

~Faye